My future husband is going to love me

This is awesome

This reminded me of someone maybe she'll know who she is by reading this....

Class tonight

Cheryl and I went to our child development class tonight just like we do every Tuesday.Usually we always have very interesting discussions.Tonight was no different. A lot of the chapter we covered was on child abuse(sexual,physical,emotional). It was so so so sad hearing some of the stories coming from our teacher. There are some real sickos running around out there. I do serve a great God though. So being reminded of that tonight was the highlight of my night(maybe even week...maybe even life).The Krantz came over for dinner tonight.I hate having to leave early for class. I miss spending time with them...I mean I do spend time with them but....
Okay so I'm hungry again. Maybe I'm growing, and I don't mean outward.I could be hitting a growth spurt where I reach the desired 5'9-5'10.That'd be way cool although highly unlikely.Ha! Tomorrow is another day of spanish.The good news is that it's only 2 hours and then I can go home. As you can probably tell my thoughts are once again running around with nowhere to go. Oh hey I forgot to tell you today Sis K..I LOVE YOU and am very happy with having you as my Pastor's wife!!!

What I did today

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Should I or should I not?

I have been advised to step away from the study guide

I was trying to work on my study guide for a test I have next week. I wasn't focused,my vision was getting blurry and I was getting to the point that I wanted to throw my textbook across my room. Why is it so hard to focus? Maybe tomorrow my mind will do what I want it to and actually study. I cannot wait much longer to fill out this study guide.My text is next week and I want to be very prepared.I know that I could study the night before and do just as well but I don't think I actually retain any of that information. Also,staying up all night studying is not my idea of a good time.I can just see myself being Oscar the Grouch that next day.No thanks! So, I have decided to stop procrastinating and just do it.
Not much else to say. I could say a lot of things but won't since this is a public blog.I will however write them in my personal journal later on :)
Adios
xoxo

Sllleeeppp come to me!!

It is 12:09am and I am wide awake. Since school has started I have been asleep by 11pm if not earlier except for tonight. For some reason I cannot sleep. My mind is buzzing with all kinds of thoughts. Studying,spanish,CLC,Africa,my family,my growling stomach,my dog....all of them are just floating around in my head...it's actually pretty interesting but I'd say more annoying right now because I have to be up early.

So funny!!

Awesome preaching!

So of course Bro Krantz preached an awesome message. I never remember titles but it was something along the lines of My identity in God. He talked about 2 sides of mistaken identity.One is the no confidence,always down on self and worrying about what other people are going to say/do. The other side is the big headed people who think the world cannot function without them. They do everything,they help everyone. You get the point...I hope :). Anyone who knows me can guess which side I'm on.hahaha. The biggest thing that stood out to me was that I am actually someone in God. I think I may even be offending Him because He made me a certain way and I can't accept that. Hmm....what do you think about them apples?? I made progress last night. I certainly prayed through some issues. After church tons of us went to the Corkin's(sp?) house to eat and play games. Normally I disappear with the kids while they play WII. A lot of people always made me nervous because I could never keep track of how they're seeing me and I never had enough energy to be all things to all people. Last night I felt very comfortable being with the adults even if there was a lot of them. I was very relieved that I didn't feel as though I had to be a certain person around them. I was just me and anyone can take it or leave it.Ooooo I got to see some old friends last night. Tanya and the Alexandru's. I forgot how much I missed them peeps. The Alexandru's have always had a special place in my heart and I am so happy I was able to see them. I wouldn't trade where I am for anything but I do miss some folks.

V-Day/Single's Awareness

Amy and I had a Valentine's Day/Single's Awareness Day party yesterday with the kids we were watching. I had Josiah and Jeremiah.She had Blake,Melody and Kal-el. I think it went very well. The kids enjoyed everything we planned for them :) Amy and I even made one gigantic pink cookie. It really wasn't supposed to turn out like that but....well....Sis K' oven is possessed.Ha! At least that's the explanation we gave the kids.

Fly my pretties

Health etc

Frank after his surgery.Poor thing.Anyhow, my health class today was quite interesting. I had a really hard time sitting through it. We watched a graphic movie on Suicide. It really put me in a somber mood and I felt really disheartened the rest of the day. I probably shouldn't have let it bother me so much, but I did. I cannot wait to sleep and dream of sugar plums to try and get that movie out of my head. I just can't stop thinking about it....my heart hurts. So, SOM practice went well tonight....I think so anyways. At first it was real scary. Thankfully Amy worked with us and we got it down.. for the most part. I'm incredibly nervous(when am I not?). Yay! No school tomorrow! I don't actually know why I said yay to that. What am I going to do all day?! Well, I will think of something I'm sure :)
Adios xoxo

Ahhhhh

I am quite pleased with my days. I have kept busy with school and practicing for SOM. I had my first spanish test today and am 99% sure I got an A :) It's pretty easy stuff for now, it helps that I took 2 years of it in jr high and 1 year in high school. I remember quite a bit but never use any of it so I'm rather rusty. So speaking of Spanish...i'm pretty thirsty. hahahaahaaa(kev and A know what I mean). Tomorrow is a quiz in health. Easy stuff. I've taken a lot of nutrition classes and they cover basic health so everything is review. My homework is to think of two questions I want the opposite sex to answer...something I've always wanted to know about men. Hmmmm....interesting. Any ideas? I can only imagine some of the stuff my ears are going to have to hear. Oh well, I'll think of my happy place while they're busy talking about things that should not be discussed. Ha! Interesting...

Rabbid Central

Random Monday

Woot Woot! Sitting for these boys is SO MUCH FUN!

Invisible ghost Jeremiah

Me eating space noodles

The face I made of Josiah

Doing crafty stuff

These pom poms are of me,Josiah and Jeremiah

Do you wonder?

Do you ever wonder if spending too much time with someone will cause them to not like you as much? I do. I feel like if I'm with someone often they'll get annoyed with me and look at me in a different light. Perhaps that is why I tend to isolate at times. I don't want that to happen. Maybe I need to get over that. My confidence could use a huge boost. I have been praying/fasting over my self confidence/esteem/body image AND my nervousness. Seriously, I want these issues to be over and done with. I don't want to take them into a marriage. Although that is a super long way off I figure the sooner I get rid of them the better. On a side note, I haven't said on my blog lately how much I love my Pastor and his family(Sis K,Josiah and Jeremiah).

Thursday

Me today

School...blah

I leave for class in 40min exactly. For some reason I am so tired. I woke up yesterday morning tired even though I had slept a good 8 hours. Last night I slept the same amount and am so tired I wish that I could skip class and sleep. According to a very wise person self determination is the key when you do not feel like doing anything. So, my self determination to do well in school is carrying me through my excessive sleepiness that I've been experiencing the past two days. I'm pretty sure that last sentence was quite a run on. If you're a grammar freak then deal with it,okay?! I like all the words I fit in that sentence and do not want to reorganize it. Well I'm off to take a power nap before class! Hasta Luego!

The king of the castle

Awww....he's so adorable.